Hi everyone, I apologize for being absent for sooo long! Christmas time got busy, and there just wasn't time for blogging. It was a wonderful time, though, and honestly I was really sad to see it end. It seemed to go so fast! So here we are....onto a new year!
My wonderful husband installed a new kitchen floor for me for Christmas, and I am enjoying it very much! Some of you may remember my posts last year about our kitchen remodel. It started last January, and still isn't all the way done, but it's almost there. It's been an amazing transformation! The old kitchen was unfinished and ugly, and now my kitchen is sooo pretty! I'm very thankful. Anyone who has seen my house before we did any work on it, can REALLY appreciate this. I may post before and after pictures eventually.
I've been battling some mild lethargy and depression, that I really think is related to the huge amounts of sugar that I consumed over the holidays. I am cutting back on sugar, hoping that will help. The miscarriage did leave me very anemic, but I've been taking iron for awhile now so that should be getting better.
I've also come to a sort of crisis of faith regarding being a homemaker. My husband has pretty much been out of work since the middle of 2008...there are little jobs that pop up here and there that keep us afloat...but no "real" job. Sometimes I struggle with having faith, and this month has been one of those times. I've had to really think, "Do I really believe that God has called me to be a keeper at home, even NOW?" The answer is yes, but I do struggle, and I've asked God for more faith. I have, however, been trying to come up with ways to help bring in income from home.
The sermon this week at church was just what I needed to hear. It was on Matthew 6, which I have read many, MANY times, but it was really good to read it again:
25 “Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27 Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
28 “So why do you worry about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin; 29 and yet I say to you that even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30 Now if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
31 “Therefore do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For after all these things the Gentiles seek. For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.
O ye of little faith...yep, that's me! Shame on me. Even though the circumstances don't look good, and they seem to drag on fooorrreeeevvvver.....God knows. He knows what I need, and if I seek HIS kingdom first, He will take care of the rest.
Blessings to all of you, as you begin another year in HIM.
April,
ReplyDeleteThis post really hits close to home... My Aunt's husband was out of work for 3 years. Everyone kept saying to her why don't you get a job. But she kept praying and trusting God. She fasted quite often. She did have times of doubt. But right when things seemed completely hopeless, A job was found. Little by little things are turning around for her and her family. She kept saying I must stand on my faith and believe God will take care of me. And He did! People are astonished. They can not believe how quickly things have improved.... I know all will come out well for you as well.
Blessings,
Amy Jo