Hi everyone, I thought I'd better post an update for anyone who may be wondering how I am doing. I am hanging in there, and currently just in a waiting game.
My nurse called me on Tuesday with the results of my labs. She surprised me by saying that they weren't positive that I was miscarrying, and to go in for an ultrasound that morning. It turned out to be just a brief, fleeting ray of hope, because when I got to the ultrasound, the news was not good. I was 7 weeks, 2 days that day, and the sac was only measuring 6 weeks. She couldn't see anything in the sac, but she said it was just too small and she couldn't see...it didn't mean that there wasn't something in there. But we couldn't see a heartbeat or anything. The combination of the ultrasound, and the fact that my hcg is not rising as it should, led them to believe that this is indeed a miscarriage. The doctor said she is 90-95% sure.
But because there is still a 5-10% chance of life (as small as that is), and because my God is the God of miracles, AND because I have read stories of women who have been told the same thing and went on to have a baby, I am waiting it out for now. I'm going back for another ultrasound next week. She said that if nothing has changed in a week, she will be able to say that it's for sure a miscarriage.
I have been praying for a miracle, but I am also preparing for a loss. I know I AM grasping at straws. The odds are against me, but God can do anything. I know He CAN cause a baby to grow after all, I just don't know if He WILL. I need to be okay with whatever it ends up being.
To those who have been praying for me, thank you SO much. I have not been feeling well, and I have my daughter's birthday to pull off this weekend, so I'd appreciate prayers for strength and energy in spite of how I'm feeling. I will keep you all posted. God bless!